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Brian Esser's Ramblings

Music Is Life, Live Loud

Created on 2003-04-06 19:32:15 (#989774), last updated 2008-11-07

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Name:	Brian Esser
Birthdate:	1976-04-19
Location:	North Star, Ohio, United States

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About Me
I spend way too much time online and I fucking hate myspace, facebook and any other site plauged by 15 year old kids typing leet' speak.

I'm older but I still love to party and still refuse to conform and play the sad little roles so many of us feel we must take on in order to suceed and supposedly become something in our lives. I am learning to be a father more and more everyday, and despite my fears from my younger days I absolutely love it.

I love tattoos though I only have one.

I'm a natural exhibitionist and very sexual (but what guy isn't right?)

I love to debate and defend my viewpoint. Sometimes too much. I'm very loyal to my friends and will do anything to help them. That usually lands me in trouble but I always do it and probably will continue to. I'd rather be knee deep in hell surrounded with my friends and the ones I care about than sitting safe and sound and doing nothing.

I wrote this below several years ago but it still holds true

I've realised that life is never what you want it to be. Plans change, people change, friends let you down and lovers disappear. The only way to truly be happy in this world is to find happiness within yourself and take heart that anything beyond that is truly a gift and should be cherished. I've learned that if you love someone, you love them like this day is your last. Leave nothing unsaid and never hold back your feelings. Never be scared to fall in love, never be scared to get your heart broken. Never be afraid to give 100% of yourself. You will be hurt, you will fall down. Wear the bruises and scars of failed attempts with pride and know that without them you wouldn't be where you are now, for without them you wouldn't be prepared for whats next. Know that to love someone with all your heart and to have it returned for even but one fleeting moment can be worth a lifetime of pain.

Respect and honor are worth more than any possession or material thing, even worth dying for if need be. If you can not understand that then you will never understand me and shouldn't waste both our times. I've lived on both sides of the good and evil line and have learned my lessons. I've hurt those who love me and I have seen the look of disappointment in a loved ones eyes. I have sworn to myself and to god above that I will never see that look again. I'm not proud of many of the things I have done in my life but they have taught me my lessons and made me the man I am today. I wouldn't change any of it, good or bad.

Family means more to me than anything in this world. I would do anything for those I love and care about. I have a kick ass younger brother who I would do anything for and a younger sister who I love very much and am so proud of both of them and what they made of their lives.

I'm what you call the anti-bully. I have no respect for anyone who pushes others around just because he can. If you think you're bad-ass cause you can beat someone up just cause you can, chances are we'll knuckle up. I spent my entire childhood being bullied around until I learned to stand up for myself and haven't let anyone push me around since nor back me down. I'd rather carry an ass whupping than to be a coward.

I'm your typical A.D.H.D victim. I tend to get sidetracked on simple tasks and have encountered some of the greatest moments of my life on said paths, so i refuse to change the way i am. I am loyal to my friends, sometimes to a fault. I will do anything for someone i care about and even most I don't. I love loud music, hanging out with good friends having a good time. I'm not much into the bar scene yet I love packed clubs, go figure. I often feel like I am the only person who "gets" me. I often wonder if i am the only one in the world who feels like I do.

I'm also open about my sexuality. I am bisexual and if you have an issue with that keep it to yourself or step up and get knocked the fuck down. I have no room for intolerant people in my life. I treat people how I expect to be treated, thats with respect. So if you're a close minded person most likely we won't get along and you should click the back button now.

Music
I would rather die than to live my life without music. I almost constantly have music playing in the background or while I'm working. My musical tastes vary depending on my mood. I listen to an enormous cross section of music, ranging from Mozart to Tupac. Music motivates me and influences my moods more than any other factor in my life.

I am constantly downloading and discovering new music. To me finding a kick ass band I've never heard before is akin to someone finding money laying on the street. I'm an addicted music downloader as well. Last I looked my mp3 collection was over 55,000 songs. I love loading up all of them and just hitting random. It's rare I find a song I don't like listening to.

Movies
I am a huge Kevin Smith fan, I have every film he has directed, acted in or financed (sad I know). I enjoy science fiction and comedies mostly. Lately I've been into the short lived FireFly TV series. I have also been buying way too many dvds lately but thats another story.

Television
I don't watch much tv but when I do it's either car shows or things such as the Colbert Report, South Park, History, Discovery or the Science Channel. Though lately I have been digging The Office and My name is Earl and Heroes.

Books
I'm way behind on my reading here lately. my last reading experience was Augusten Burroughs "Running with Scissors". Which I found amusing and quite interesting. The book before that was Michael Dysons "Holler if you hear me, search for Tupac Shakur".

kink

Check out my new photo site. It's a place where I and others can post and host their own homemade adult material, free of charge and hassle. I was tired of the games most sites play so we started our own. Hoping to turn it into something bigger, maybe a community sort of site. But, for now we just need users and content. I know most of my friends are just as big of pervs and exhibisionists as I am.

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